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Never thought that I could actually achieve what I want, from what I wrote in this blog entry 4 years ago.

http://mcjustwrotethis.blogspot.my/2011/05/being-rational-and-futuristic-in-love.html

Time flies so fast and God really has His own way of planning our life. Alhamdulillah. ;)

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2015

Wow.

Just quite surprised that it has been two to three years since I left this blog.


Now it is the year 2015, which is reaching its end.

September 2015.

So far, my life has gone through a lot of changes. Busy with work and responsibilities plus the mobile phone which makes me go online through laptop less. Theheee sorry for that.


This is the latest update of my life.

Now,

I am


Married

and

Pregnant.

7 months pregnant to be exact.


Latest news is that I finally get the posting. I am now

an official teacher, at a school in Temerloh, Pahang.


So many things happened and so many things have changed.


What's important is;

I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY BABY TO SEE THIS WORLD

Alhamdulillah. My life is so full of blessings and I won't let this happiness go away so I'm taking this opportunity to thank God for everything that I have now. A good husband, a married life, a job, and the most exciting one, a babyyyyyyy.

Till next post, I promise to share more of my stories in the future. Even if not in details, but at least a bit just to cheer up this gloomy blog which is created 5 years ago (it is already five years and I just realised it now?)

Okay bye!


p/s: Feeling awkward writing this entry since I left this blog for quite a long time but I promise to reduce the awkwardness later. Theheeee

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Life as it is

After getting married for a month and seven days, it's me again. I'm now used to have someone in my life, the most important person above everyone else, and that is my husband.

I'm so happy that we're united and finally be married to each other. Can't really describe how it feels like (being married to someone you love), but this holy relationship that we have now is totally a good thing for me. Of course, my life changes 360 degrees and it will never be the same like my single life. Even though there are lots of work to do (household chores and all that), I still feel happy and glad. Contented. Really. My life now has more purposes and its full of responsibility.

Now I know why people love and get excited when talking about marriage. It's the moment you tie the knot and bam! You are someone's, forever. The feeling you get when someone is and will always be there for you. And the most important thing is you'll never be alone, you will always have the perfect company day and night. There will always be someone who's thinking about you because you are also the most important person to them. The feeling of love and being loved. I am just really happy with my life right now, even though I have to live apart from him because I'm still studying. Well, that's how it is. Obstacles are what makes us better.

Right now is the happiest moment of my life. I don't feel lonely or sad anymore, whenever I'm reminded of my late mama and abah. This is how God wants me to continue living my life. I'm stronger, happier, and more responsible. This is what marriage do to me, I am now a more matured person and I live to make my other half happy.

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Unpleasant situations.

So tired. So many things to do. So many datelines to catch up. So sick of housemates' sloppy behaviour. 

Give me a break.

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Semester Holiday!

I am now having the time of my life at home. Fuyoooh! The first month has already passed, and now another three months are waiting to be fulfilled with boring daily routines. Hopefully I will get a job, and I want to work at KFC this time, as that fast food restaurant is located not so far away from my house.

Also, last June 5 was my birth-date! I was so happy and cheerful after I got a call from my love; Jaja. Hehe. I was smiling non-stop when he sang the birthday song for me and it was really really meaningful a thousand time more than any birthday gifts. I fell in love again with him. Then, I read all the birthday wishes on my Facebook wall, feeling so euphoric because almost every my high school friend remember me and wrote on my wall.

Well, actually, it's nothing new and like everyone, we always feel very happy when it was the birthday.

That's all about my recent update. For now, I wake up at 12.30 noon and sleep at approximately 3 in the morning, every single day. I'm really looking forward to doing part-time job at KFC. I want extra money so that my brother's Kancil will get repaired and I can drive that car anytime anywhere I go. Hehehe...

Till next post, bye!

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Coping with My Busy Life

ASSIGNMENTS AND TASKS

Recently, I had tons of work and assignments to finish in only a week. My classmates and I burnt our midnight oil for every single night of the past week (last week of March). Still, we had to get up as early as we can for our 8 in the morning classes. -_-

This nocturnal activity made us become immune with tiredness and backpain. In class, we still had to do presentations, grouping tasks, oral test, and also listening test. Imagine how did we go through all this hell period? Fuuuuuuuuuuu. It was like, wow. I didn't even notice that it was already weekend. All this things happened because of the late assignments given by our lecturers, and we had to pass up all our works at the same date. Each day, we had to do at least two assignments and the next day, we got another tiresome work to do. We still have two more assignments to finish.

So.... All of us had our sleepless nights for almost two weeks in a row. 

DRIVING CLASS

Also, I just came back from my driving school *oh yeah; Pusat Latihan Memandu Sektow.* ;D 

Starting from last March 26 and 27, Intan, Faezah@AG, and I, had our driving lessons from 8 in the morning until 2 pm. Yeah, we managed to pass the computer test and our practical successfully. Today, we finished our 6th hour of driving lesson. Fuhh, it was so tiring and awesome too at the same time, thinking that I can drive my late abah's car in the future.

All I know now is I have gained much more confidence in driving, compared to last week. I failed in parking the car and right after my session was finished, I cried. It was so depressing that I got scolded non-stop by Cikgu Ani. Fuuuuuuu, but it all changed today and I improved a lot. I think that's because of the blessings from God. 

MUET EXAM

You see, as a TESL student, I feel so embarrassed and pathetic for not getting Band 4 and above in my last year's MUET. It was only 7 marks to get Band 4. I really regret my clumsiness and for this upcoming MUET which is next week, I hope I will get the best marks and who knows I might get Band 5, like Theeb?

Speaking Test - April 6 *this is the date which my abah passed away, :'(

Reading, Writing, and Listening Test - April 16

It seems like I need to prove to my abah that I actually can make it.

FINAL EXAM

Not to forget that our Final Exam is only two weeks from now. It's going to start at April 18, and we only have two weeks to prepare for that. I am really really really not ready for the final!

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With all these works and things to do, I feel really exhausted and I can't even breathe properly. Getting through this hectic life makes me think that whatever it is, I am now experiencing Uni student's life, so I need to cope and adapt with this life.

Please April end fast, and please May come faster, then my four months semester holiday will come!

Footnote: Luckily I still manage to text and call him for a while every day. :)

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Pain as a Reminder from God

I don't know what's wrong with my body. 

Everything's not right and it is really painful. 

My body aches here and there. 

Maybe God wants to show me something. 

He gives me pain as a reminder.

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30 Days Challenge and Random

So, I think I might want to do the '30 Days Challenge' as many of my blogger friends have done that, as I find it quite interesting. On top of that, this task will get me regularly posting entries.

But, somehow I'm still in a mess with my unfinished business, well we call it ASS-ignment. Okay then, I'll keep writing in this blog more often so that I will not get bored the entire day doing studying works.

Random thing I spill, 

I have fallen in love with English accent again, arsehole. Give me moaaarr and moaaar English movies to watch and I swear I will not stop practicing the accent, not after Harry Potter long time ago.

Footnote: The official Malay blog is getting abandoned day by day. Don't blame me for its boringness. ;p

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Songs I'm currently listening to..

There are almost 2000++ songs in my laptop hard disk. However I only listen to some of them, some Malay songs, Japanese songs, Korean songs, which are lovable to my ears, but most of the songs I like to listen to are English songs.

When I was in school, I loved to listen to Avenged Sevenfold and Good Charlottes' songs so much. After finishing SPM, I changed to K-Pop, I was once a mad-crazy-fan girl of TVXQ (now they're already disbanded) at that time.

After that, when I started studying here, I loved Katy Perry and Lady Gaga's songs, because they're energetic and loud. Still, I'm more interested in Lenka and Lily Allen's songs, and I'm also in love with Timbaland, Katy Perry, and Ke$ha. Their songs are great.

As for now, I like listening to not-really-slow, low-pitched, relaxing, cool, therapeutic and meaningful songs. 

Taylor Swift, Owl City, Lily Allen. Their songs are my favourite. Currently, I'm in love with these songs:

Taylor Swift - Speak Now, The Best Day

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight, Fireflies

Lily Allen - Who'd Have Known, Not Fair

Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me

Amanda Seyfried - Little House ('Dear John' movie soundtrack)

Also, my all-time-favourite songs are;

If We Ever Meet Again (love the rhythm and beat)

Who'd Have Known (love the accent!)

Kiss Me (evergreen)

Speak Now (recently enlisted)
Maneater (since school time)
Only When I Sleep (love the music)

Because I will never get tired and bored of listening to these songs. I feel my day is more meaningful and brighter whenever I listen to them. This is also a sign that I'm no longer a teenager who likes rock, punk rock, and hardcore songs. It's just that I'm already a young adult who loves to feel calmness, relaxation, energy, and therapy for my days.

So, I recommend you to listen to these songs too, even though they're not as recent as Firework from Katy Perry, but I love them! I love music and songs. They make me feel happy inside out. That's why I have my cute lovely multimedia speaker on my table.

footnote: Listening to English songs doesn't mean I forget my daily prayers and Surat recitation. 

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TALK TO YOURSELF #7

I found too many beautiful people in my life, so I decided to stop calling myself the ugly duck and become a beautiful swan instead.

(Mcjust, 2011)

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Heavily ever after.

What do you think when you read the title? Erkk.. I sense FAT.

Yeah I know I'm not overweight but I also know that I'm neither thin nor slim. I'm a little over-rated than the normal weight for my height. It makes me feel so frustrated because I can barely lose weight even when I'm on diet and doing exercises. Maybe the exercises I've been doing are not enough, or is it because of my metabolism rate is too low... Plus, I always eat rice once a day recently, and sometimes I don't eat rice at all because I'm not feeling hungry.

I take 'Proviton', one capsule each day, and it helps me a lot in skipping meals. This is the reason why I don't eat much rice lately, as I always feel full and energized until evening. Yes, a capsule of 'Proviton' multivitamin do not make me any hungry. That's what I like about it.

In case you don't have any idea what 'Proviton' looks like.

But still, I am such a lazy person, and again, I have stopped jogging for months, starting from last October 2010 until now (because of studying for final exam). 

For now, I only do exercises in my room, dancing and stretching, because the weather is freaking hot every single day! I cannot jog and at the same time burn my face just to get fit body, I just need to be discipline in my daily diet and regular exercises (in room!).

THE WORD 'WEIGHT' IS ALREADY FREAKING ME OUT.

It is really hard to lose weight............ *Sigh*

footnote: Wish I don't have to be 'HEAVILY EVER AFTER'.

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I Have a 'Kind' of Hobby... and Shawls!

So, my hobby is wearing and trying my shawls, and shirts, and jeans, again and again in my room before folding them again to clean up my room.

Even right now, I'm still wearing a dark-choco shawl which I bought from Kime,who is Wanah's ex-roommate, for only MYR10. I really like the colour but still, I don't want to put the picture here because I'm wearing shawl with only my shorts and singlet on kihkihkih.

That's what I thought of it. It is a weird kind of hobby and I know there's still others who like to wear and try their clothes on their body, and pose and camwhore in front of the mirror. But I don't really like camhorror-ing, because my phone's camera is soooo that.... £$$~+!?ER£$%£$!:@

And the thing is, I have like 3, or 4, or maybe 5 shawls in my closet but I never like wearing them to classes or to go outings with friends. I think I just like to buy and try it on my head, in my room just because of the colour and the price. Many of them are still new-alike as I seldomly wearing them, and yes I'm a lazy-asssss girl who likes to wear the express tudung to classes, everyday. ;)

This one is with my second shawl, the black one. I took this picture last year, with the same hobby. Wearing and trying it on just in my room, in front of the mirror, and without proper clothes on. Hoho.

just ignore the ducky lips!

BTW, I like the normal-old style of wearing shawls, I mean with/without inner and I don't like the loose style shawl, because I think a person who wear shawls with that style really looks like a wicked witch with hoodies. Don't you think that it is kind of fussy and also troublesome? How about wearing a loose-style shawl on a windy day?

Well, the one I prefer on top of all is still the 'express tudung' and I have a collection of them.

Fever Face.

Above all, I like this weird hobby! And I like shawls too, it's just that I am too lazy to wear them often.

Footnote:  If you don't understand what I meant about the loose-style shawl, just google it. Too many girls and ladies wearing shawls with that style, and the number keeps increasing. Hoho. Believe me.

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'The Notebook'

Seriously, I will never get tired of watching 'The Notebook', over and over again. I mean, the storyline is just amazingly fascinating. The way they fall in love with each other, and how they survive their life after being separated. The love, the patience, and the reality of life. I have learnt all of this just by watching this movie and it has always made me cry. Aaahh ignore me the sensitive person! I don't know for how many times I have watched this love-story movie yet I still want to watch it.

This afternoon, after class and a short outing with my friends for lunch, I watched this movie once again. I also print-screened the part when Noah and Allie quarreled, and I just love the words spilled by Noah. 

I THINK I'M TOUCHED.

Noah and Allie <3 I'm touched.

This is only a part of this movie, there are more flowery words and romantic scenes contained. Wait, did I say 'romantic scene'? :p

'The Notebook' is filmed based on the novel which entitled the same. As always, novel-inspired-movies are fascinating as ever! 'Dear John', 'P/S I Love You', and many other romantic love story novels that then created as movies  are terrifyingly-damn-great to read and watch. 

footnote: Dear Love, I think I am falling in love with you again. <3

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I prefer Twitter than Facebook.

And that is one of the reasons why I just deactivated my Facebook account. Actually, this is the third time I try to deactivate it. The last time I did and it only stayed not any longer than 5 minutes! Facebook is freaking the hell out of me! I don't know how to stop looking at my 'wall' and even though there's nothing new and interesting about news feed from others, I still keep refreshing my Facebook page, clicking 'home' like a retard and desperate-for-attention person.

No way, and I'm not gonna let this thing happen to me. It will make me seem like a loner and will be forever alone! Fuuuuuu~

Few days back, I activated my old-not functioning-boring Twitter account after such a long hiatus. Hell yeah I found it was more interesting and simpler than addictive Facebook! Also, I don't need to look at others' walls or pages or profile, which makes it simplerrr than the simplest!

Now, I spend most of my time on Twitter.


**UPDATED**

I just activated my Facebook account like 5 minutes ago after deactivating it about an hour ago. T___T
My friend just uploaded our latest pictures and I certainly wanna see them. Then....
What am I? A psychopath or am I that desperate for a living? Lame....
Waaaaaaaa~ Get a Life! *to those people who spend most of their time on Facebook.

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Quite true but cannot be fully-trusted.

I found this article when I was blogwalking. Wow! Quite true and I admit that my partner is quite attractive *coughcough*. Well, not that this article's not true but it's just cannot be fully-trusted. I found it here. :)

This is me!

June Babies

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

And this is about my love partner. Hee. :p

July Babies

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be l oved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days.




Well, the last part which says "repost this blablabla and blablabla..", never crossed in my mind to ever believe it. Hoho!

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TESL NIGHT

Yesterday was totally great! My classmates and I really enjoyed our TESL Night to the fullest! I was the 'music engineer' for our sketch performance. Our sketch title was "Oh, my prince!" and it was really a good story created by Faezah @ AG, our director and scriptwriter. 

For the full details, I wrote it in my other blog yesterday, in this entry, right after I went back from the event. I also uploaded some pictures of us. It was very unforgettable and this TESL Night will be our sweetest memory of all.

I learnt that we are now a family and we work together to make things easier and achieve our goals.


And all I wanted to say is this;


We cry together like a weak petite child, we laugh together like the evil wicked witch, we grow together as handsome brothers and beautiful sisters... and we make a really great family. ;))

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FFFFFF

I don't like this situation. It seems like I'm the one who's always wrong and stupid but believe me it's not true! Spoiled my mood, luckily I'm not involved with our TESL NITE drama.

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FUTURE

It's 2011 and I'm going to be 20 this year! There's a lot more to do for my future plans. First thing first is I need to get my own driving license, for a better living actually. It's kinda hard to live with only one person in your family who can drive the car. Before this my late father would drive us to wherever we wanted and needed to go but since father has already passed away, only my brother-in-law left, who knows to drive cars.

We are not richer nor poorer than other families but sometimes the money we have is just enough for our monthly necessities. There are seven members in my family, my mother, including my married sister with her son, and her husband (my brother-in-law) living at home. Still, my 'bachelor' brother, and my 16-year-old-youngest sister is not always home because they live in rent house and hostel, me too, here in Ipoh.

Before this, when I asked my father about driving license, he always said that it's not suitable for me to drive since he's still there for our family. My father was a little bit insecure of his children driving cars as he could not rely on us. Maybe my father thought that we were still small children for him who he needed to protect. That was one of the reasons I could not even drive car or motorcycle back then. Sadly, my father left us earlier without any one of us expecting that.

At first I thought it was my father's fault because he didn't let any one of us get driving license except for my first eldest sister, but then, I accept that it was because of his STRONG LOVE towards us. He loved us too much that he didn't want us to be exposed to roads and highways, not without him driving for us.

As for me, turning into 20 give me a lot of things to do. One of them is to get my driving license, because that is the only way I think  I can be useful to my family before I got a real job and salaries. 

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THE FIRST CLASS IS ON WEDNESDAY

Doing things sincerely so that all works will be done properly in a great way.

All I wanted to say is tomorrow I want to go to class with a happy face and a pretty smile worn on my face. Yet, the percentage of being crazy is quite high though, said my friend from other class, Syarina Bubblee.

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MY DEGREE YEAR THINGY

Today is the 2nd January of 2011, and tomorrow my friends and I will start our new semester with new subjects and lessons. Wow! How fast time flies I can't even imagine because it feels like I just registered my foundation course here in 'Institute of Teacher Training Ipoh Campus' (IPGM Ipoh) like, yesterday. Now, I am continuing my studies for degree!! Hoorray!

A year and a half in foundation with all supportive and great comrades was very great I suppose. Last week, my classmates and I had our orientation week at 'Sultan Idris Education University' (UPSI). It was totally fun there, knowing new friends and seniors! Now, we are back in Ipoh.

For those who don't know a single thing about the UPSI thingy, here's the cronology:

July 2009 to November 2010

I was taking my Foundation TESL course; called PPISMP B. Ed TESL (or something like that)

Three semesters. Finally I've finished my foundation!

2011

I will have my first year degree in IPGM Ipoh, for this whole year. But my classmates and I must participate in the orientation at UPSI first!

2012 to 2013

I will continue my degree at UPSI. A twinnig programme between IPG and UPSI. 

2014

The last year and I will go back to IPGM Ipoh to finish my studies. For convocation, I am still not sure whether it will be held in Ipoh or UPSI.

Well, no matter where I am studying at, it's just important for me to be grateful and thankful to God for giving me this great life. These friends, and lecturers. Different learning environments, teacher training institution and university, I love both! It is great to experience two different environments while studying. University campus is bigger because there are many faculties there. Teacher training institution is focused more into teaching 'teaching lesson'.

From all of these, I get to know many types of people I've never seen before. These experience will be great.

Aaahhh...

I love being a teacher-to-be!

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